I have said that I was born to be a mom. I previously channeled this connection into my nieces and nephews. However, as involved as I got, there were always aspects of taking care of children that created apprehension. These aspects included setting up and breaking down a stroller, mixing formula, being 100% responsible for the bath process, properly setting up the car seat, safely using a moby baby carrier, etc. On top of the apprehension one has with a normal full term baby, these and other "procedures" are compounded with a preemie.
What has been such a surprise to me is the confidence I have in most if not all these things. Rather than being scared because my child is more "fragile," I took that challenge to be even more assured in my actions. As I have always said, I had plenty of training to be a mom. I just did not fully realize the depth of that training because I could rely on others for assistance. I was a third party following instructions. Now, I (along with my husband) am the controlling party training others in what to do. This is such an awe inspiring feeling.
I will always remember the first time I wrapped a moby around my body and put Tristan in it safely. All this was done in my kitchen at 11 something pm.
I will always remember successfully instructing my husband on how to collapse our particular stroller.
I look forward to the future moments where I surprise myself with the mothering things I know even better than I thought.
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